pissed off

well, Pam took me in to the hospital for my hernia repair yesterday and it was a total mess - after filling out paperwork getting prepped and doped up, i was informed that basically too unhealthy to be treated - the heart monitor was showing what appears to be atrial fribullation or whatever it is - next step is a trip to the cardiologist jan 25th - until then i have to take it easy - i am still absorbing the fact that i was watching people getting wheeled into surgery that couldnt walk across the room under their own power, but i was considered to much of a risk for a simple hernia repair - hell, the previous day i swam a mile and rode my bike 30 miles.......